I think a lot about the future. About how I want to make my mark on this world, do something of significance, and find that perfect intersection of talent, passion, and opportunity. And I’m not just dreaming—I’m working constantly to do everything I can to make those aspirations my reality.

I’ve experienced a few successes that seem to indicate I’m on the right path, but lately it seems like there are more roadblocks than gateways—and I’d be lying if I didn’t admit that it’s discouraging. I wonder if I am taking the right risks, if I’m running out of time (yes, the baby clock is ticking), or if I’m just kidding myself into believing that my dreams are actually possible to achieve.

As I encounter a season of unforeseen obstacles, I think about the hyped-up motivational phrases I often see emblazoned on coffee mugs and office posters and inspirational calendars that say, “Forge your own path. Don’t take no for an answer.” Sometimes that’s what I need to hear, but when all signs in the universe seem to indicate otherwise, it’s hard for me to keep moving forward.

I can’t imagine how emotional it must have been for Hillary Clinton to stand on the stage giving her concession speech when you know she believes she’s still the best person for the job. A year ago it seemed she was an unstoppable force, a lock for the Democratic nomination. Even when Barack Obama started gaining momentum and tightening the gap, she and her campaign kept up the positive attitude and sincere belief that she was going to clinch the presidency. And a few weeks ago when her campaign was millions of dollars in debt and it seemed painfully obvious her dreams of becoming commander-in-chief (at least in ’08) were nothing more than dreams, Hillary still soldiered on with a smile on her face.

Whether you are a supporter or not, I think there is something to be admired in the way Hillary ran this race. Even though she ultimately didn’t win the grand prize, she saw it through until forces beyond her control grounded her. She didn’t stop until she didn’t have a choice. In my own life, I consider throwing in the towel just when I encounter minor speed bumps or detours—things I can probably surmount. I think about how it would be so much easier and comfortable to take a stable 9-5 job with health benefits, than to continue working freelance and start an independent production company. I wonder if I have the strength and confidence to see these dreams through to either their success or failure. And if the latter occurs will I have the energy or desire to dream again.

I hope I do—since I can’t imagine a life absent of dreaming. It’s just exhausting sometimes, this long road to an uncertain destination. But it helps to know I’m not alone in the striving, that others have attempted and failed and tried again and succeeded and reshaped their goals around unforeseen obstacles. And wherever this journey takes me, I am blessed to be surrounded by good friends and family who are there for me no matter what.

Jaye's new book Seventeen's Guide To Getting Into College is now available for pre-order on her website, and keep up on her latest dreams at First Generation Documentary--The Blog.